Squad

What's a squad?
Is it a group of persons ?
can it be one person ?
Can we claim to have a squad ?
Can we claim to be a squad ?
A squad can be made of many people standing for each others till death
Yet i'm my own squad
I'm a mastermind generating myself and the poeple around me
I'm that kind of a person who dominates everyone near him
i can be what i wanna be
I can lead myself through pain
I can lead myself through harm
I can lead myself through tuff shit
I'm a leader
I'm a squad, a perfect squad made of one multiskilled person
I believe in myself
I'm a cold blooded machine i can harm y'all if i feel like harming you
Yet my white heart always stop me from being the monster who loves
to break the rules, who loves to break people, who loves to get fed
with other's pain, the people who harmed me, those who made a laugh
out of an innocent person
THOSE WHO NEVER STOPS BREADING THROUGH OTHER'S PAIN
As a kid my mom told me be your ownself
How can i be myself ? If i try to be myself i'd burn everyone
I'm a heartless monster
I'm a heartbreaker, i love watching people's pain
I love to watch someone crying over s.one they lost
i'm an animal unleashed
Yet you can't unleash me
I control my feels
I dominate myself
But this voices in my head are asking me to become the "Me"
The animal
The one and only monster that i'm made of
The pain inside
The painful moments i had
The darkness
The sadness
The insecurity
The suicidal thought


RELEASE ME
LET ME DOMINATE THE CONQUERORS
LET EM BE WHO I WAS BORN TO BE
NO CHAINS NO BRACELETTES NO LAW
LET ME UNLEASH THE NATURE RULES
LET THE TUFF ONE SURVIVE
LET THE WEAK ONE DIE
LET EVERYONE SHOW WHAT HE'S CAPABLE OF
DON'T KILL THE HUNGER SURVIVAL INSICTS
LET THE WORLD BE ONCE AGAIN PERFECT

First attemp

Salma
A simple word made of 5 letter
S : Simple
A : Ability
L : Love Life
M : Mature
A : Absence
What those letters mean ?
P1: Simple loving ability ?
P2: A mature love ?
P3: an absence of a perfect lover ?
I'd say Salma goes for pain
Salma used to be mine
Used to be my life
One day Salma went far/ How far ?
Here's the respond to that silly question
She went by the god's side
How did that happen ?
That happened because she was on the way to visit her Lover
That lover claimed to be named JIMMY(SIMPLE NAME)
Jimmy used to act a fool
Jimmy used to ignore Salma and denied the fact that he loved her
till the day he knew he lost something very valuable
What can this valuable thing be ? An Iphone 6 ? maybe a gold chain?
That day Jimmy lost Salma
Soo i'd say the last one was the right one (P3)
A shadow of her soul keeps following him everyone he almost went crazy
That guy cried days and nights
He cutted his self
He suffered pain
Under the sky full of stars he would spend one night counting them
instead of jumping back in time to remmember the happy moments
Happy=sad
Why ?
What's used to be happy in it's absence it becomes sadness, it turns
into pain
Can Jimmy survive without Salma ?
Yes he can!
No he can't
Let's stop from faking the truth about him
He's a lover after all
Maybe he acts like a tuff person
Maybe he smiles and he burry his mock under that smile ?
He want's to end his pain
to join her in the paradise
But suiciding isn't the choice, he'll join the bad persons in hell
But do hell actually exist ? God exists ? Heaven exists ?
You can trust your eyes, you can trust your hands
Yet you can't trust a book
Life's complicated
Who said it would be easy ? none said that
From the day you are born you must follow
you don't choose your language, your religion, your parents, your race, your nationality
I'm out of my point, sorry about that but my head's a mess
there's soo much i want to talk about but i'm chained i must be what they want me to be
i must write what they want me to write
After all Jimmy will survive without SALMA and you all will survive after a heartbreak
Trust me i've been there
Be good, be gentel and you'll be okay :)
Yours: Mastermind <3